Everybody feels stressed, depressed and low on energy from time to time. I do too. What I wish I knew earlier is not to beat myself up for not being able to meet my own high expectations.
A simple example that everyone can relate to is a finite project that you are working on. It takes a lot of energy to complete. Yet the further you’ve progressed in it, the farther away you get from completion. My inner critic would always kick in, and I would make myself feel guilty about my own action or inaction. I would experience an internal battle and would drive myself into a stupor unable to move on, feeling low and drained.
Conflict of the two hemispheres
Later on, when I learned about the true origin of humanity and why we are born with a split brain, I understood the nature of the conflict. Through negative self-talk, I allowed the mind or my logical thinking to affect the body and the emotional part of me negatively by creating guilt (which is very mean and destructive in its nature).
We are not robots or machines after all and our abilities to experience emotions distinguishes us from many other species. It’s okay to have physical limitations and to be overwhelmed with emotions as long as you remember to balance yourself and get back into your center. You also become aware of your boundaries, through which you learn more about self.
The mind is an immensely powerful faculty. It travels a long way ahead through the linear time of this physical reality and beyond. The physical reality has to catch up with thought due to the density of its nature. It took me years to fully experience and understand this process. I learned a lot from it by slowing down and releasing the pressure that my mind created.
Back to negative self-talk. It’s been there in my head since as early as I can remember. I believe I just absorbed it from my environment. Scolding was a natural way for the people surrounding me in my early childhood to express themselves. I realize now that I could have inherited it, but the further I get into deprogramming and release work – the better I recognize it as something alien to my physical and energetic body. Something like an ‘energetic’/etheric implant. Perhaps it was artificially embedded in me, but the mind and body accepted and assimilated it.
Looking back, I can see how much suffering it has caused me through the years. And how counter-productive many of my actions were as a result. I feel such a great relief with my entire being since I managed to shut that sick and old voice down (that’s what it sounded like). No more self-inflicted suffering, I’ve had enough.
There are plenty of other forces on this Earth that are trying to bring the creative and spiritual spark of humanity down. Stop doing this to yourself. Pull those rotten strings of negative attachments out and up ASAP! You’ll do much better without.