This series of articles is dedicated to my observations regarding the challenges and struggles that we all face daily. These observations are experiential and are based on myself and the people I know. I will trace some negative conditioned responses back to where they started, which will hopefully serve as an inspiration for you to unravel your own inner conflicts that require resolution. Please refer to Part 1 & Part 2 if you haven’t read them yet.
The color of confusion is grey. Within a person’s auric field, it can look like clouds, fog or smoke. Grey permeates the organs and the chakras. I had lots of items of grey color in my space. And almost every other physical experience I’ve had on Earth so far was accompanied by confusion. Maybe even from the other lifetimes.
Physical reality is confusing. It’s harsh, rough, unfriendly and unwelcoming for most of the people I know. Did you ever wonder why? It wouldn’t exist without the collective mind-pattern of victimization that the absolute majority of the humanity shares. We all co-created it so that we can learn our most tough lessons by being in a physical body.
The human/animal body is susceptible to pain, suffering and all sorts of discomfort. Physical reality is a reversed and exaggerated copy of the Hyperspace. All possibilities have a place to exist and expand within Hyperspace. That’s how the God-Mind explores itself.
Breath of Life
The moment of physical birth is confusing and associated with a lot of trauma. It totally overshadows the magic of the moment when you take your first breath. By breathing you are recreating the breath of Creation – the wonder of existence that distinguishes the leaving from the non-living. This same force makes galaxies contract and expand.
When you breathe, you oxygenate your body and purge the toxins out. You literally purify yourself every time you inhale. Remember to use the correct color – medium green – when you do your breathing exercises and you will prolong your life significantly. This color represents healing, emotions, and the heart. It is a perfect remedy for any mental, physical and emotional imbalances.
I used to smoke when emotions overwhelmed me. The brown color of the tobacco attracts many people who feel the need to ground themselves. The process of smoking temporarily distracts your animal mind from the overflowing emotions, but it doesn’t help to heal the issue that caused the imbalance. In fact, it adds more confusion to your body and auric field instead. What surprised me was discovering the mind-pattern that most smokers share and its meaning in the Hyperspace terms. Lack of grounding and balance, lots of suppressed emotions and feelings, failure to express themselves in a clear way.
Smoking is a poison that kills slowly just like confusion itself. Let’s see what it does to your body.
Excessive confusion within the body eventually transforms into fear or anger and starts destroying the atomic structure from within. Physical conditions that it causes are incompatible with a healthy and balanced lifestyle that many are willing to create.
In the start of my deprogramming journey, confusion was exhilarating. It prevented me from making correct decisions and actions. My foundations and belief systems were falling apart with nothing to support them anymore. That included all relationships: with myself, my partner, my family, colleagues, acquaintances, and friends. What’s worse, my thyroid was weak, which I know indicated my inability to express my feelings. Confusion surrounded me like a vacuum and I was suppressing lots of emotions not knowing how to release them in a proper way.
When In Doubt
Doubt often drives us to question everything instead of just taking things for granted. Too much questioning always tempted me to look for an explanation or a clarification by means of logic. When you are not in balance, you switch from the left brain to right. You lean towards either emotions or logic.
The Clue Is In Your Past
What you feel cannot always be explained through logic and rationalization. However, it can be explained through self-analysis and observations. Retrieval of your early childhood memories is extremely helpful when you try to make sense of your conditioned responses.
Let’s take a childhood event that you would attribute as a positive one, but the other people perceive it differently. Say, you flipped your mother’s favorite china while playing with your friends. Your mother is angry at you. You’re suddenly caught by surprise not knowing how to react. You are supposed to feel guilty and apologize, yet, in reality, all you can think of is the enjoyment of the game. All you wish is to continue playing. Your innocent enjoyment is now tarnished with guilt. Life has so many bitter-sweet moments like that in store for you.
Confusion feeds the mind-pattern of emotional imbalance and uncertainty. It is extremely parasitic. To release it, start identifying the areas of your life in which you are confused or uncertain. Start noticing the situations in which the confusion occurs. What is your reaction or immediate response? How do you bring yourself back to balance? Do you rely on external media such as people, places, things, habits or foods to comfort you?