Throughout the last couple of years, I’ve noticed that my personality has ‘stretched’. I was pushed to a foreign country with ‘alien’ culture and language, new home and neighborhood, family-in-law and acquaintances. I was forced to step out of my metaphysical closet because I struggled to deal with all the arising challenges and to get used to new things. It was a positive change, yet it came with a high cost of having to transform my entire being from the inside.
Changes in my physical environment forced me to go deeper within where I started recognizing my mental blocks – old belief systems and negative self-talk. Since childhood, I was imprinted with the idea that all the comfort I have comes at a high cost too (think labor, time, money, resources, etc.). Guilt for what I had and for wishing to have more than I already had become inherent. I was always appreciative of my comfort, yet I was missing the ‘comfort’ of my old home, the environment that I could control.
Last year, I was taking on new challenging career functions, new educational paths and hobbies, worked on elevating interpersonal relationships with my partner, my family, and friends to a more mature stage. It was all happening simultaneously, I was overwhelmed and was having the same old unreleased struggles of adjustment. I had to work on the animal mind.
My first year in a new country has almost thrust me into operating from the reptilian brain and into survival mode. I had to prove to myself that I was worth all the positive change, but I had to learn to accept the totality of everything I have within me including both positive and negative. I have physically removed myself from the comfort that I was used to into the discomfort and insecurity of the new and unknown. Why did I have to be afraid? Why all these worries and struggles? The answer is simple: I was not ‘at home’ with myself.
When you deprogram intensely, you may feel like losing the ground beneath your feet. No surprise, you are shaking your foundational mind-patterns that are catching up with the abrupt changes in your physical environment. It is a kind of psychic surgery that you perform on yourself, and it takes time to heal before you’ve completely recovered. This is the time when you need your Oversoul communication most, and if you are receptive enough you will notice how caring its frequency is and how it is always willing to support you and help you out in the hardest times.
I’m fortunate to have a partner who is caring and supportive. He has been comforting me through all these months of adjustment. That made me feel better and helped for a while, yet I knew that I had to resolve the conflict within myself and stop being a victim of my own belief system (think matrix).
The comforting attributes of this physical reality can be your favorite foods, alcohol, nicotine, drugs, escaping to the world of virtual reality and entertainment. It can also be a desire to surround yourself with people, so you are distracted from dealing with the issue. Like most of the prescribed medication, all of the above are not healing the emotional ‘wound’. They just help to mask the symptoms for a while. The issue comes back and hits harder each time when it is not addressed correctly.
We need the comfort of our home to feel grounded and safe, the support of our family and significant other to know that we are loved, we need the comfort of the ‘familiar’ not to fear the change.
Physical reality is a reflection of the state of your mind. Let it teach you and guide you, but don’t allow it to deceive you. Switch your inner vision and awareness on and see what’s in there that needs to be fixed. Identify the problem so that the solution can present itself. Nobody and nothing is infallible; accept it, resolve it and move on. Your oversoul has so many exciting things in store for you to accomplish in this lifetime.
What makes you look for comfort outside of Self? What helps you to pull through the discomfort of the physical reality?